Wednesday, December 5, 2007

attitude of gratitude

Most of the time, we tend to be very ungrateful of the things that happen to us. I think about it almost every night before I eventually fall asleep. I try to visualize my life in the future. What person I would become. Honestly, i'm not sure who i'm trying to be. Although currently i'm in engineering field, deep down inside me, I know that this is not something I want to do in my lifetime. But somehow, I still remain attached to it because life is not all about what I want. In today's era, you can't really be picky at everything and that includes choosing my study field. Or perhaps, at this stage of life, I might be acting too emotional. Maybe I like what i'm doing now, but i'm not sure. What I know now is to stay focus and finish whatever I have started, and see where it will take me.

Gosh, I don't know what's got into me. I kinda have this problem where i can no longer express my thoughts into words. I think I will take a rest now.

Monday, December 3, 2007

A new episode : The beginning

Here is a another attempt of the neverending story of my life. Started it off today by waking up at noon. A normal day i suppose. Tried to open up my eyes earlier but no hope in that. I get so used and now i think i'm addicted.

Last night i watched a series called "Samantha Who?". Pretty interesting i would say. The story revolves around a girl, Samantha, who had a permanent memory lost which they refer as retro-something amnesia after she was hit by a car that had landed her in a hospital unconscious for 8 days. After she lost all of her memories, she began to learn things about herself which she had entirely forgotten - her name, her family, her friends, her boyfriend, in fact all her life. Sam used to be a bad person - cheated her boyfriend, ditched her friends for cool ones, had a relationship problem with her parents, etc. When her memory suddenly disappears, she is almost like given a second chance to undo all those things that she did before. She wasn't the old Samantha she used to be. She tried so hard to be someone she should be.

I'm so lost with words. Catch ya later